I finished my second semester and am in an interesting internship at a law firm now (it's quite cosy too, hooray for connections), also went to a con a week ago and survived.
I've been de-bernding for over a year now, making great strides in that time. I also became accustomed to situations which would have caused me panic attacks two years ago. With that came restlessness, a thirst for challenge, for progress. I'm eager to try new things now, and don't hesitate to take a chance even if it's a novel experience for me.
But the farther I go, the farther I see along the long road ahead of me, and feel like I can't afford to indulge in some nice activities by the wayside yet.
When I was just a NEET, I was content with my lot, and lived every day for its own sake and committed myself to any activity as I pleased. Coming this far I have gained many freedoms, but my life feels more constrained now because there is only one direction left: forward.
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