Well, I tried. I might even have fallen asleep for a little bit. But outside of the window I can see the sky brightening and the dawn approaching. By this I felt pressured: "Oh god, the sun is already rising and I haven't slept yet! I must hurry!" Naturally, this only lead to me tensing up and growing nervous. Closing the shutters didn't help either, as the birds are already awake and singing the hymn of the impending sunrise. So I thought that instead of lying in bed growing increasingly desperate I should just get up and watch the birth of the new day from here, I can still sleep later after all~
EDIT: The sun is rising. I fele happy, because... I'm free. I overcame so many limits of myself tonight, I freed myself from my obsession with time, I freed myself from feeling obliged to always do things, like sleeping... This golden sunrise feels like I too have been reborn.
This post has been edited by P.P.A.: Apr 1 2010, 05:34 AM
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