The Strongest Matthew For Whenever Options

[Shadow]

FUCK YEAH HAYATE

[Shiokazu]

OH SHIET MOAR BIRDS!!!

[P.P.A.]

I don't know what's up with me lately. For the last couple of days, I feel as though I've not been myself... Although it's more than that, it's like I'm not even within me. As though I was standing next to me absent-mindedly while "I" somehow do stuff here and there without any soul or meaning in it.
Yesterday morning with its wonderful weather kind of reunited me with myself, but in the afternoon that faded away again and I reverted to but an empty hull lacking the spark of life and my own essence. I feel rather like a robot of sorts, moving without moving myself, doing without doing anything. I get things done but I don't merge in anything as I would normally, even when talking to others I feel like I don't speak out of myself but from an... outer, thinner plane. I've even been neglecting being the manipulative magnificent bastard I am usually in an online politics game!

I admit I have not been treating my body well recently, so I should perhaps try to sleep an hour longer in the morning, things like that... Mens sana in corpore sano. :/


Also:

[07:52:28] <PPA> but mot of all
[07:52:36] <PPA> I have been feeling so... not me the past few days
[07:52:36] * PPA is now known as Guest44957
[07:52:40] <werster> <_<
[07:52:41] <Guest44957> As though I was standing next to me
[07:52:43] <Guest44957> ...
[07:52:44] <Guest44957> IRONY
[07:52:47] <werster> timing X)


EDIT: So apparently all I needed to regain my self was to lie on my bed reading while listening to music, something I used to do but eventually began to neglect. Somehow it again filled me with the vibes I was lacking, heh. After I don't have to study for school any more I better go and buy some more books!

This post has been edited by P.P.A.: Dec 5 2009, 02:07 PM

[Elnendil]

Work has been pissing me off lately. I can't really trust Customer Service Managers or fellow co-workers to get the job done. I literally walked around my store today surprised at how nothing is actually worked on, what a mess. I decided to skip all the way up to the store manager, since it was annoying me that much. I'm not sure if it did anything, possibly not, but i'll just keep complaining if that's the case.

God that one worker is an absolute failure. He barely does anything and if I try to help him he takes my spot and bunkers down. Why is he not fired. Shit.

[P.P.A.]

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Valkyria Chronicles (!)
Also S06 if you dare to take the risk.

EDIT!:
God, oh god! What wonder did just bless my eyes! This was the most beautiful and moving moonrise I have ever been graced with! Half hidden was the full yellow shape of his behind the pitch black silhouette of the mountain, from which it rose with a most respectable speed. What shame! I would have loved this moment to last forever! It was a sight unmatched by anything else the night sky has ever bestowed upon my view, this full glowing shape ascending from behind the endless darkness, the shadows of clouds veiling his visage, and he shone upon their ranks outlining their ghostly shapes with his dirty, yellow light! It was as though he dug his way out of the heavenly soil, casting up unrefined gold with every step he rose! And his glow radiated throughout the entirety of the sky, still casting faintly bright shadows onto the dark grey and menacing colossi populating the tent of the night, although those in his proximity seemed like demons which were being incarcerated by his purifying fire with their shadowy ashes dispersing in the darkness! Oh, how terrible that my camera was unable to take any shots remotely capturing the beauty of the scene! And how even worse that I wasted far too much time looking through its lens instead of indulging myself in this miracle!

Good thing I didn't suffocate, seeing how the excitement nearly drowned my breathe.

EDIT2:
He returned. It seems as though his bath in the clouds washed off the dirtiness in his shine, and now it's a pure and clear light. To be honest, I fail to muster up the words needed to describe the endless brilliance which kissed my eyes, so I shall let this blurry photo unworthy of its motive speak for itself:

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Re: Rai
Basically, this morning Rai and I had a little talk in the channel, where he also criticised my posts for being too convoluted and a pain to read. Eventually he suggested I should try to write haikus or UBWs instead, which I did seriously consider to at least try. Later today though I strayed from it follwing my earlier desires, since such limitations would be like gagging my soul's very voice; I simply cannot make my words at least a tiny bit worthy of nature's beauty if I can't use metaphors and allegories to express what I felt, and I would be denying my self if I ceased to do that, and I most definitely will not do that just to appease to some people's tastes.
I did look at my posts again however, and admit that they are indeed barely readable furballs of words. Therefore, also partially incorporating Rai's suggestion, I decided I should perhaps instead write them in verse form. I would never arrogate it to myself to call anything I do poetry, as it's just my thoughts tossed into text, but I think this manner of writing might make it more readable (or so in the first place). I know that my style like my inconsistency when it comes to rhymes is flawed, but I never actually studied the rules of poetry, verse forms, etc. and fear that if I did so it would steal some of my fire.
I'm sure the Walrus faction will now use this as further fuel for their empty accusations of me being pretentious or something and "trying to be deep", but you know what? I don't give a shit.

(tl;dr Rai had a point which I can also see myself but I'm not just surrendering my very identity and self so instead I will now write down my experiences in verse form to make them (more) readable. Insert blues here.)

Anyway, to practice it I rearranged the above quote about when I saw this wonderful moonrise, so here have v2.0, now hopefully with less hard on the eyes:

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What wonder my eye was just blessed with,
What beauty the rising moon,
Which outclassed today in his circle
His everyday evening bloom.

The nightly mountains' dark structure
Imposed itself on his shape,
That yellow circle ascending,
Alight on the titans' black peak.

He rose by the second, so fast;
What shame he did not stop still!
For the moment was worthy to last,
Forever my eyes it should fill.

No time before had the night sky
Seized hold of my breathe this tight
More than now when the thin veil of darkness
Of the clouds tried to steal Luna's light.

He traced their outlines with fire,
His flames turning shadows to ash,
Like ghosts did their forms merge with heaven,
Like demons dissolve in the dark.

The moon from the soil dug his way up,
Casting gold dust far and beyond.
The most distant celestial colossi
Still were touched upon by his shine.

What woe that the lens was unworthy,
That my camera blind in the night;
And how worse that I wasted my eyesight
Staring through it and not at his pride.

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[Lloyd Seegymont the Rasier]

I've gotta go to work soon D:

bird

[P.P.A.]

Not if I can

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anything about it!

[Hayashi Tenshi]

I just thought I should point out that I've never been more infuriated than by the combination of Lucho's giant animated sig and obnoxious animated avatar.

(;

The animated avatar is really cute!

[Frisk]

I'm such a whore

[Hayashi Tenshi]

Oh my goodness. The birds are invading!!

[Miki Trie']

Curse ye multiplying affect! XD

[Hayashi Tenshi]

How many users have the bird as an avatar now?!
O_O

[Miki Trie']

Holy smokes! I counted 6 so far.

[P.P.A.]

We are legion.

Since I ripped it for myself yesterday, does anyone want the music of Sonic R?
http://www.mediafire.com/download.php?y3jykjt2t1n

This post has been edited by P.P.A.: Dec 5 2009, 10:57 PM

[Miki Trie']

Hey guys! LCN is now a free bird watching park!