The Strongest Matthew For Whenever Options

[Dr Strum]

Back for it's third iteration, and still longer than any other.
You know what to do. Just post about stuff. Your life, your insanity, or even your favorite cardinal direction.

[P.P.A.]

Been doing quite well this past week, a lot better than I was about two weeks ago, definitely.

Complete opposite for me, the past week was utterly awful. ...which I probably made more than clear in this thread so this part of the post might be redundant. >_>
Ah well, I also learned a lot from increasingly deconstructing myself and on the way saw the necessities for quite a few reforms of my mentality (like ceasing to think that I am unworthy of and do not deserve anything, trying to stop hating myself, and some other things). There's one inner conflict that remains unresolved though... Also since how I feel is of zero importance and I have no reason to care I guess it doesn't matter. Well, I do feel sorry for so often having bothered others (primarily the people in my channel and this thread) though. :(
Should I give up all my desires and wishes because at their core they all aim for my own happiness in some way, even if they take the detour of "good" things? (As it is with almost every human being; taking Mother Teresa as an example: Did her actions not ultimately serve her own happiness? If it made her happy to see others become happy or at least have their pain lessened, all she was doing was making herself happy through others.) In a lot of situations I simply merge with the flow of life and act as it just seems right to me without any ulterior motives, like if for example someone asks me (for) something or seems to require help. In these cases I just instinctively do the right thing without thinking about any possible benefits if there even are any. Yet as soon as I do something with a set goal in mind I can trace my thoughts/wishes back to the selfish origin of desiring happiness (actually what Aristotle said). I am unsure whether this is simply human and I just need to keep it down to prevent my desire for happiness being at the cost of others' and use it wisely, or if I should rather try to completely eliminate it in order start living in harmony with the flow of life doing any actions as the need arises for the sake of themselves (while denying myself)...

SHITTUBE CHANGED MY CHANNEL DESIGN FUCK THEM.

WHAT IF I LIKE THE OLD ONE.

MINE IS STILL UNTOUCHED
HAHAHA

This post has been edited by P.P.A.: Oct 7 2009, 10:20 PM