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As soon as I feel spite for that person, even if I don't voice it and still remain respectful and polite (as I always do anyway), it is a crime I myself is committing
Are committing. And I feel that way too.
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In the absolutely worst cases I also upon reflection was shocked to discover that I had been trying to make myself happy through the happiness of others.
Why is this bad?
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... realising that I long for things I do not deserve...
"Deserve" is a tricky idea. How can you say that you deserve this but not that?
There's a deep moral issue there.