I don't like Asaph. I don't understand the meaning of the word sarcasm, and I assume that everyone is serious even when they're not. I pretend to be five different people, or maybe they're my friends, who just happen to give off the exact same vibes as me. No, it's not exactly the same, but there is a very strong feeling of "I know this person" coming from my five people, and the feelings all match up to lead into the same person. Very negatively.
I wouldn't mind the fact that I lack a good grasp of English, if it wasn't for the fact that I try to make it seem like I don't by throwing out words that I don't understand. I also throw some of them out in an attempt to fit in more with the community. I see a word used often, I think "Oh, I must use it if I am to fit in!" but the use is just so stilted. If I am going to use the words, let it be natural, don't force it uselessly. I want to fit in, but I never will. I should accept it and stop trying to pretend I’m just like you. I want to stay, but I should only do so as Myself, not the user "myself." Because I'm not Myself. I're myself.
And I go overboard with everything. And I don't like my sense of humor. I've noticed that those two things are extremely common in people I don't like that stay at LCN. Interesting. I go overboard, talking for five days about what nobody cares (See? Just like this!). Making Ir horrible jokes that are less jokes and more "Let's be over-the-top and offensive because we think it's their style." Too bad I forgot the thing that makes a joke what it is rather than this sentence and the sentence after this sentence. It wasn't a joke, but I guess I would probably think it is. Especially if I said faggot. Horrible. And I'm not even going to get started on those I defend. Because I do not discriminate. And that's not always a good thing, contrary to what racism tells us. Discrimination is the difference between "I like Stalin" and "I like Jesus."
My response? I'm interested in seeing where this will go, despite the fact that I really just wanted to whine because it's unbearable keeping all of this inside for months and months and feeling like nobody agrees and making no sense because of it. Maybe even saying random things. And I hope my sentence structure in this is as bad as I felt it was when writing it.
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[13:27:43] [Sabator] peter would be the worst batman ever though. "turn on the bat-signal" "right!" *turns on huge foglight, beams an image of striped pantsu into the sky*
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